Cable to Nowhere

Verse 1

The daylight hits me like a bruise
I’m fresh out of excuses I can use
I see the suitcase by the door
I don’t think you are listening anymore
I’m tracing patterns in the dust
A monument to all the broken trust
I should have stopped it at the start
But I love the sound of tearing things apart

Chorus

I know I’m wrong
I knew it all along
I’m driving on the wrong side of the lane
Just to see if I can stand the pain
I know I’m wrong
To keep you holding on
I’m burning down the house to feel the heat
And watching as you walk on down the street
I know I’m wrong

Verse 2

You asked for truth, I gave you lies
I see the static interference in your eyes
I’m self-destructive by design
Running backwards through the finish line
I want to say I’ll make it right
But I’m just looking for another fight
It’s in the wiring of my brain
To stand out in the freezing rain

Chorus

I know I’m wrong
I knew it all along
I’m driving on the wrong side of the lane
Just to see if I can stand the pain
I know I’m wrong
To keep you holding on
I’m burning down the house to feel the heat
And watching as you walk on down the street
I know I’m wrong

Bridge

I take it back.
(I can’t take it back)
I take it back.
(It fades to black)
I’m the villain in the scene.
I’m the machine.
I’m the machine.

Outro

Yeah, I know.
(I know I’m wrong)
Yeah, I know.
(I know I’m wrong)
Don’t wait for me.
Don’t wait for me.

Verse 1

The sun goes down behind the hill
I take the silence like a pill
The shadows stretch across the floor
I’m locking every single door
I hear the traffic far away
The dying breath of another day
I’m sitting in the fading light
And arming for the coming fight

Chorus

Tomorrow is a heavy stone
I have to carry it alone
It’s coming like a tidal wave
To wash away the things I save
Tomorrow doesn’t care for me
It’s just another tragedy
I close my eyes and hold my breath
And wait for the little death
Of tomorrow

Verse 2

I made a promise to the dark
To leave a stain, to leave a mark
But now I’m just trying to survive
To keep the engine humming and alive
The calendar is on the wall
I watch the dates begin to fall
I’m paralyzed by what is next
And reading through the ancient text

Chorus

Tomorrow is a heavy stone
I have to carry it alone
It’s coming like a tidal wave
To wash away the things I save
Tomorrow doesn’t care for me
It’s just another tragedy
I close my eyes and hold my breath
And wait for the little death
Of tomorrow

Bridge

It’s always coming.
(I can’t stop it)
It’s always coming.
(I can’t drop it)
The future is a loaded gun.
There is nowhere left to run.
Nowhere left to run!

Outro

Here it comes.
(Tomorrow)
Here it comes.
(Tomorrow)
Just close your eyes.
Just close your eyes.
It’s almost here…

Verse 1

I’m dragging anchors in the sand
I’m losing grip with every hand
The air is thick, the light is dim
I’m sinking fast on every whim
I try to lift my weary head
To take back everything I said
But gravity is pulling tight
Extinguishing the little light

Chorus

It’s getting heavy
It’s crushing me
The weight of all this history
It’s getting heavy
I can’t stand up
I’m drinking from the poisoned cup
It’s so heavy

Verse 2

The atmosphere is turning lead
I’m trapped inside the things I dread
I wear the guilt like it’s a coat
It’s tightening around my throat
I calculate the cost of fear
Of staying paralyzed in here
I want to move, I want to run
But I weigh a thousand tons

Chorus

It’s getting heavy
It’s crushing me
The weight of all this history
It’s getting heavy
I can’t stand up
I’m drinking from the poisoned cup
It’s so heavy

Bridge

Carry the load. (I can’t carry it)
Carry the load. (I can’t bury it)
My knees are bending.
My back is breaking.
The earth is shaking.
The earth is shaking!

Outro

Too much weight. (Heavy)
Too much hate. (Heavy)
Dragging me down.
Dragging me down.
Into the ground.

Verse 1

The gravity is focused here
Behind the eyes, behind the ear
I’m carrying a cannonball
I’m bracing for the inevitable fall
The neck is stiff, the spine is bent
I’m wondering where the hours went
I cannot lift it off the chest
I cannot find a place to rest

Chorus

My tired head
Is filled with lead
I’m hanging by a spider thread
My tired head
The static noise
Destroys the poise
I’m losing all the little joys
Inside my tired head
(So heavy)

Verse 2

The pillow feels like solid stone
I’m aching in the marrow bone
The thoughts are grinding out a groove
I’m paralyzed, I cannot move
I try to close the mental blinds
To leave the wreckage far behind
But pressure builds inside the skull
A dull and unrelenting pull

Chorus

My tired head
Is filled with lead
I’m hanging by a spider thread
My tired head
The static noise
Destroys the poise
I’m losing all the little joys
Inside my tired head
(So heavy)

Bridge

Turn it down.
(It’s too loud)
Turn it down.
(The black cloud)
It’s squeezing tight.
It’s squeezing tight.
Like a vice.
Like a vice.
Make it stop.

Outro

Lay it down.
(Tired head)
Lay it down.
(Tired head)
Close the eyes.
Close the eyes.

Verse 1

The silence is a loaded gun
I’m waiting for the damage done
I keep the television on
To fill the space where you have gone
I’m staring at the pixel light
Burning holes into the night
I cannot be alone with thought
Or the battles that I haven’t fought

Chorus

I need a distraction
A chemical reaction
Anything to block the view
Of everything I did to you
I need a distraction
To dull the satisfaction
Of tearing out the wiring
And listening to the tires sing
Just a distraction

Verse 2

I scroll until my fingers bleed
Consuming things I do not need
The information overloads
Exploding on the side of roads
I’m terrified of sitting still
Of losing all my force of will
So turn the volume up to ten
And drown the voices out again

Chorus

I need a distraction
A chemical reaction
Anything to block the view
Of everything I did to you
I need a distraction
To dull the satisfaction
Of tearing out the wiring
And listening to the tires sing
Just a distraction

Bridge

Don’t let the silence in.
(It’s crawling on my skin)
Don’t let the thinking start.
(It tears the world apart)
Keep it moving.
Keep it moving.
Don’t look down!
Don’t look down!

Outro

Just noise.
(Distraction)
Just white noise.
(Distraction)
Cover it up.
(Distraction)
Fill the cup.
(Distraction)

Verse 1

The signal fades, the screen is dead
I’m trapped inside my heavy head
The coffee cup is cold as ice
I’ve rolled the same unlucky dice
I’m waiting for the fog to lift
But I can feel the continental drift
You’re asking me to take a stand
But I’m building castles in the sand

Chorus

I’m just not sure
I’m looking for a sudden cure
I’m sleeping on the hard concrete
And watching from the backseat
I’m just not sure
Of what I’m fighting for
I’m drowning in the shallow end
Pretending that I can ascend

Verse 2

The neon sign begins to blink
I’m standing on the jagged brink
You want a promise I can’t keep
I’m talking in my restless sleep
The words get stuck inside my throat
I’m wearing someone else’s coat
It’s static everywhere I turn
Just watching all the bridges burn

Chorus

I’m just not sure
I’m looking for a sudden cure
I’m sleeping on the hard concrete
And watching from the backseat
I’m just not sure
Of what I’m fighting for
I’m drowning in the shallow end
Pretending that I can ascend

Outro

I don’t know.
(I’m just not sure)
I don’t know.
(I’m just not sure)
Let me fade.
Let me fade.

Verse 1

The ceiling fan is spinning round
I’m listening to the hollow sound
I dissect every word you said
Until the meaning is completely dead
I play the scene inside my mind
Looking for what I can find
A hidden code, a secret sign
I’m crossing out the borderline

Chorus

I’m overthinking
The ship is sinking
I’m poking at the open wound
To see if I can change the tune
I’m overthinking
Every blink and
Every breath you ever took
I’m reading way too much into the look
Overthinking

Verse 2

I create a problem where there’s none
I’m blocking out the morning sun
I calculate the odds of pain
And drive myself inside insane
I paralyze the simple choice
I analyze the tone of voice
I’m building mazes in the dark
And waiting for the dog to bark

Chorus

I’m overthinking
The ship is sinking
I’m poking at the open wound
To see if I can change the tune
I’m overthinking
Every blink and
Every breath you ever took
I’m reading way too much into the look
Overthinking

Bridge

It’s a loop.
(It never stops)
It’s a loop.
(The penny drops)
Rewind the tape.
Review the crime.
I’m running out of quiet time.
I’m running out of quiet time!

Outro

Did I say it right?
(Overthinking)
Did I do it right?
(Overthinking)
Maybe I should call…
Maybe I should stall…

Verse 1

The sun is mocking me again
I’m struggling to find the pen
To write the list of things to do
I’m filtering the light of you
My eyes are glued, my brain is dense
I’m sitting on the picket fence
Between the living and the dead
With heavy concrete in my head

Chorus

I need coffee
To jumpstart the machine
I need coffee
To wipe the memory clean
I need the chemical
To make the miracle
I need coffee
(Just to breathe)

Verse 2

I’m vibrating in the chair
I’m pulling at my messy hair
The conversation is a blur
I don’t know what the words infer
I’m running on a hollow tank
I’m walking up the wooden plank
I pour the black into the void
To keep the panic un-deployed

Chorus

I need coffee
To jumpstart the machine
I need coffee
To wipe the memory clean
I need the chemical
To make the miracle
I need coffee
(Just to breathe)

Bridge

My hands are shaking.
(But I’m not waking up)
My hands are shaking.
(I fill another cup)
The heart is beating fast.
But I’m not gonna last.
I’m crashing down.
I’m crashing down.
Wake up!

Outro

One more cup.
(I need coffee)
One more cup.
(I need coffee)
Can’t stop now.
Can’t stop now.

Verse 1

The compass needle spins around
I cannot find the solid ground
The ceiling is the floor today
I’m walking in a disarray
You’re speaking in a foreign tongue
The ladder lacks the bottom rung
I’m reaching out to grab the thread
But unraveling the spool instead

Chorus

Confusion
Is the only state I know
Confusion
Where the static flowers grow
I’m lost inside the labyrinth
I’m standing on the plinth
Of Confusion
(Yeah, confusion)

Verse 2

The signs point left, the road goes right
I’m blinded by the flashing light
I try to organize the mess
But I am playing losing chess
The logic doesn’t hold the weight
I’m arriving early, leaving late
I’m mixing up the false and true
I don’t know who I’m talking to

Chorus

Confusion
Is the only state I know
Confusion
Where the static flowers grow
I’m lost inside the labyrinth
I’m standing on the plinth
Of Confusion
(Yeah, confusion)

Bridge

Which way is up?
(Don’t look down)
Which way is out?
(Turn around)
I’m spinning.
I’m spinning.
The center cannot hold.
The center cannot hold.
Where am I?!

Outro

I don’t understand.
(Confusion)
I don’t understand.
(Confusion)
It’s all a blur.
It’s all a blur.

Verse 1

The fog is lifting off the glass
I watch the miles go flying past
I packed the rest of what I own
I’m disconnecting from the phone
The coffee cup is finally cold
I’m feeling young and looking old
I woke up from the fever dream
And ripped the stitching from the seam

Chorus

Someday I’m gonna get it right
Someday I’ll sleep throughout the night
I’ll find a place where I belong
And I won’t always be so wrong
Someday the static turns to sound
But right now I’m just coming down
Yeah, someday…
But not today.

Verse 2

We ran in circles for a year
Driven by the noise and fear
I saw your ghost in every face
But now I’m leaving this empty place
You said that we were meant to be
A tragedy on color TV
But the screen is flickering and black
And there is no point in looking back

Chorus

Someday I’m gonna get it right
Someday I’ll sleep throughout the night
I’ll find a place where I belong
And I won’t always be so wrong
Someday the static turns to sound
But right now I’m just coming down
Yeah, someday…
But not today.

Bridge

It’s a long way down!
From the clouds to the ground!
It’s a long way down!
And I don’t want to turn around!
I don’t want to turn around!

Outro

Someday…
Someday…
Not today.
Not today.